newly found and restored but missing the old

its kinda funny the story on how i found this blog. well the story goes as my sister opens her blog and somehow my blog seems to pop out for no reason everytime! so... me being curious, opened it and read all the weird and immature stuff i wrote :D but deep inside, i kinda missed that old person. she was really energetic and colourful but she was suffering. but she kept it inside and reassured that everything was fine when it was not. and now the 'new' me is plain and tired and restless. but the good thing is that i've finally opened up about my issues and it kinda gave me some happiness. eventhough it was just for awhile.